It Started With A Song

Disclaimer:If this sounds raw its because I wrote this on my lunch break during my fast in March.  If you feel like this post speaks to you please email me or leave a comment so I can pray for you and keep you updated for when our fast starts.

What are you afraid of? For me the breaking of a soul tie started with a theme song and a word for the year. That was in 2015 and my theme song was Robert Glasper's Trust featuring Marsha Ambrosius, and while it may sound like she was singing to a man I imagined I was singing it to Jesus. And so I would sing "put me back together and mend my heart" only watching their live performance on YouTube.When I heard the real song and heard John P. Kee talking at the end of the song, oh I just about lost it, especially because I was in such a broken place and in such a mentally spiritually and physically abusive relationship. Little did I know I would get oh so more broken before God fixed me . At the end of 2015 my lover off and on of 10 years banged my head into a wall, kicked,  punched and tried to strangle me. So broken, I was already drinking everyday and had no idea what to do with myself. I drove to a police station and sat outside crying for 30 minutes. The officer told me I could not have the man arrested without pressing charges and then I started thinking about his family. And so I drove home crying hysterically. I asked my Dad what I should do and he told me to go to work. What followed was a 5 hour break down at work in front of coworkers and customers. I was done, officially broken and ready for God to put me back together and mend my heart. I started another 21 day fast on January 5th 2016 and that was it for me I haven't took a drink since. I haven't seen that man who I used to think the earth spent for since December 18th and I'm ok with that. So for now let's start with a theme song. Things will get deeper later. My theme song for this year is Marsha Ambrosius Lose myself. Because it's true I had to go absolutely stark raving mad 😜 before my eyes were open to the fact that until I loved God with all my heart I would never love myself enough to have a healthy relationship. So I'm getting back to Angie and loving and getting to know who I am in Christ. What about you? What's your theme song?

Jesus take the wheel

So, heres the thing, you cannot have an interaction with Jesus where He frees you from something and remain the same.

There's not been a time yet that I have fasted that God has not answered a crazy prayer for me. From breaking a 10 year soul tie to delivering me from alcohol addiction to even giving me the will power to give up meat! I say all this to say, I have felt this heavy tugging at my heart to do a devotional on fasting. At first I thought I would try to put it in a book and sale it but God said I should do it for free so in a couple of weeks I will be opening up a blog and passing out handmade journals for anyone who wants to get closer to Jesus and get free. Before I close this I just wanted to tell yall how dope Jesus is, in my quiet time a while back I heard Him tell me 10 journals. I would only pass out 10 journals this go round and now rereading this scripture above that the Lord gave me in my quiet time yesterday it says that after Jesus healed him the man started off to visit the Ten Towns... God is so awesome and Im so excited for you all to have the same mind blowing experiences of His love.