What Can I Do?

Lord my heart is broken and I want to listen to Stevie Wonder songs and cry. I want to know why no one has asked me about this relationship I surrendered to you knowing how badly I wanted. Why dont they ask me how am I doing? I know its because they know what type of God you are and that you will never fail me and you will mend my heart. That you make no mistakes and all things work together to bring you glory. But Lord a lot of times it hurts. The not knowing hurts. Lord forgive me for my vanity. Forgive me for not trusting in You. Lord help my belief.

God my heart breaks for my Dad and the way he treats me. I feel manipulated because I thought he really was concerned for my well being. God I have no idea what Im feeling or what I am feeling towards him. Im just hurt and I want to fight him. I want to stand up for myself but I have to let you fight my battles. I have to honor my father. You know what your doing. I have to give this to you again.

My heart breaks for my job and wanting to fight. Lord forgive me for not having a gentle spirit. Teach me your ways oh Lord. Work out the kinks I didnt even know I had. I may cry all the time but I know Your working for me. All for your glory because the thoughts you think towards me are good.

My heart breaks for Kashs Dad(KD). Like I could be bitter and Lord if there is some sort of bittterness being formed please take it out of me. I want to fight him too. So Lord I think Im angry forgive me please and take it out of me. Help me to get my mind right. God help me not to go back to who I used to be... I give you my will take it God please. Please take it. If I have my will I will destroy myself. You are my only hope. Save me Father. My heart longs for You. Hear me Father.